^不是我想要的..

朋友都說﹐為什麼自己是華人但偏偏找個馬來男朋友。 我知道啊﹐但是緣份這種東西是很難說的嘛.. 其實我的要求真的很簡單﹐但總是碰不到好男人﹐這也不能怪我啊.. .. .. .. 有誰不想有個疼愛自己的人 ? 唉~~~~ =(

``_lEtTeRs..

iTs bEeN qUitE sUm tiMe i diDnt rEcEiVed lEtTeRs fRoM mY siS eVe.. fEw mOntHs lErRh.. Mi oSo bUsY wiD mY wErk tHeN sElDoM wRiTe 2hEr.. bUt i miSsEd hEr aLoT.. aLwAeS wOnDeRs wHeThEr sHe'S dOiNg fiNe iNsiDe pRiSoN.. bUt wAitEd N wAitEd.. sTiL diDnt rEcEiVe hEr rEpLy.. iM rEaLie wOrRiEd.. hAai.. aS fOr mY eX dAviD.. hE oSo 2mOntHs diDnT wRiTe 2Mi lErRh.. dUnO wAd e hEll hE's dOiNg iN RTC.. iN hiS pReViOuS lEtTeR iN jUlY.. hE sAiD tAt hE wiL liStEn 2Mi 2bE gUd iNsiDe.. hE sAiD tAt wHeN hE's oUt, hE'L dO aNitHiNg 2gEt Mi bAck.. hE sAe tAt hE'Ve miSsEd a cHaNcE lAst tiMe.. wEll.. i gOt nO mOoD oR tiMe 2tOk bOut aNi rElAtiOnShiP nOw.. i jUz wAn 2cOnCeNtRaTe oN mY wErk.. yAa.. jUz hOpE 2rEcEiVe tHeiR lEtTeRs sOoN.. .. .. ..

_-`` e pAst..

jUz nOw wEnt 2rEaD yiNgYuE'S bLoG.. sAw e fOto tAt wE tOok wHeN wE gO oUt wHeN wE stiL sKoOliNg.. hAhAaRh.. sO sWeEt.. N fUll oF mEmOriEs.. yAa.. ReAliSed tAt aLL oF uS cHaNgEs.. tHeRs gUd N bAd.. yAa.. wiL nEvEr 4gET thOsE dAeS.. (^-^)

~jUz aNotHeR dAe..

aFtEr mY sHoWeR.. yAa.. sO rElaX.. tOmOlO QiUxiA oFF.. eiLeEn wiL rEpLaCe hEr.. yUuP.. tHeN wEdNeSdAe gOt nEw stOckS cUmiNg iN.. tHiNk wiL b A bUsY dAe bArRh.. hMmM.. iDiD oN lEaVe fRoM wEdNeSdAe tiL fRiDaE.. hEr hAri rAyA.. hAhAaRh.. jUz nOw sHe cAmE 2pAsS e sAlEs.. N tOk bOut qUittiNg aGaiN.. aS a fReN i wiSh hEr 2stAy.. aS hEr pAy wAs aRoUnd miNe.. itS hArd 2gEt a jOb wiD sUcH hiGh pAy yAa.. sO i aSkEd hEr 2tHiNk tHrU tiSsh dAeS oN hEr lEaVe.. tHeN aS a cOllEaGuE.. i oSo hOpEd sHe cOuLd stAy.. aS sHe's aLwAeS e oNe i cAll wHeN i mEt aNi pRoBlEmS oN wErk N wHeN i wAs rEaLie sTrEsS bOut wErk.. sHe's aLwAeS tHeR 2sHaRe N giVe mi lOts oF aDviCeS.. itS hArd 4Mi 2hAnDlE wiSmA aS it wAs e mAiN oUtlEt.. lOtS oF tHiNgS N pRoBlEmS 2fAcE.. Mi aLwAeS wAntEd 2gO bAck ciTyLiNk 2wErk wiD hEr aS wE'Re e bEst wErkiNg pArtNeRs.. bUt e sitUatiOn dOeSnt aLLoW.. sO i rEaLie hOpEd sHe cOuLd sTaY.. yAa.. aT lEaSt i gOt sUm oNe 2tUrN tO..

~~hiM,,aGaiN..

aNotHeR piCtUrE oF mY eX.. hE sEnd Mi aFtEr wE bRokE oFF.. i dUnO wAd e mEaNinG N y hE sEnd Mi tiSsh aFtEr wE bRokE uP.. dOeS hE tRyiNg 2tEl Mi tAt hE stiL miSsEd Mi ?? oR mAyBiE i tHiNk tOo mUcH.. hE kEeP mEsSaGiNg Mi 2SaE sOrRliE.. bUt.. Y cAnt hE tReAsUeR Mi wHeN wE'Re tOgEtHeR.. ?? mY fReNs aSk Mi 2fOrGeT bOut hiM.. bUt nO oNe fEelS hOw i fEeL.. tHeR's nO oNe rEaLie uNdErStAnD Mi.. i nOe.. eVeN wE gEt bAck tOgEtHeR.. wE oSo wUn lAst dErRh.. nO mAtTeR wAd.. i nOe i gOtTa fOrGeT hiM..

"誰 都 不 是 誰 的 誰 !!

曾經你說我是你的全部﹐你說過的話﹑許下的諾言﹑如今都不算數.. 是誰說過會一直陪在我身邊.. ? 是誰說過不會讓我掉眼淚.. ? 是誰說過會一直牽著我的手.. ? 不要傷害了我才說不是故意.. 從今以後﹐誰都不再是誰的誰 !!!!

``aRrGgH..

sHit lOrRh.. mY ciGaRettE fiNiSh liAo.. tOmOlO tHeN bUy.. sO nOw cAnt sMokE.. =( siAnN lOrRh.. N e wEaThEr iSsh fArkiNg HOT siAaL..

_-爱我就别伤害我 -_

走在冷冷的大街 天空突然下起了大雪 好想和你见面 可你何时出现 我在爱的边缘 想起和你分手的那天 泪水一点一点 一遍一遍 我们的爱情 就像风筝断了线 感情的世界 我无法改变 泪水留在天亮以前 如果你爱我就别伤害我 这不是我犯下的错 如果你爱我就别伤害我 这不是我想要的结果~~

//``有一种爱叫做放手.. .. .. ..

如果两个人的天堂象是温馨的墙囚禁你的梦想 幸福是否象是一扇铁窗 候鸟失去了南方``如果你对天空向往 渴望一双翅膀 放手让你飞翔 ``你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰 听从凋谢的时光`` 浪漫如果变成了牵绊 我愿为你选择回到孤单 缠绵如果变成了锁链 拋开诺言`` 有一种爱叫做放手 为爱放弃天长地久 我们相守若让你付出 所有 让真爱带我走 有一种爱叫做放手 为爱结束天长地久 我的离去若让你拥有所有 让真爱带我走 为了你 失去你 狠心扮演伤害你 为了你 离开你 永远不分的离去~~~~ (T.T)

*你不屬於我了_

你不属于我了 我才看清楚 爱情离开了之后 孤单跑过来的速度 你不属于我了 我没有哭 我知道 我可以恢复 也许在不知名的一个远处 也许用不服输的一种角度 我不再孤独~~

>> 不要再來傷害我..

好难过这不是我要的那种结果 你说过这辈子你都不会离开我 太多太多让你迷惑 最后你还是离开了我 开始沉默什么都不说 就让泪水慢慢的滑落 不要再来伤害我 自由自在多快乐 不要再来伤害我我会迷失了自我 畏畏缩缩那不是我 不是我要故意闪躲 你不爱我又回来问我 是否我们还能重新来过 不要再来伤害我 你是你我还是我 各自生活 挣脱爱的枷锁 即使我再寂寞 再难过 也比从前要好得很多 求求你不要再来伤害我~~

_不要在我寂寞的時候說愛我``

柔柔的晚风轻轻吹过 我的心情平静而寂寞 当我想忘记爱情去勇敢生活 是谁到我身边唱起了情歌 当初的爱情匆匆走过 除了伤口没留下什么 你总是在我寂寞流泪的时候 用你的双臂紧紧抱着我 不要在我寂寞的时候说爱我 除非你真的能给予我快乐 那过去的伤总在随时提醒我 别再被那爱情折磨 不要在我哭泣的时候说爱我 除非你真的不让我难过 我不想听太多那虚假的承诺 让我 为爱再次后悔 犯下的错 当初的爱情匆匆走过 除了伤口没留下什么 你总是在我寂寞流泪的时候 用你的双臂紧紧抱着我 不要在我寂寞的时候说爱我 除非你真的能给予我快乐 那过去的伤总在随时提醒我 别再被那爱情折磨 不要在我哭泣的时候说爱我 除非你真的不让我难过 我不想听太多那虚假的承诺 讓我為愛再次后悔 犯下的错~~~~

('.'?) RaiN..

風很大.. 不知道會不會下雨.. 天暗暗..

^hMmMm.. .. .. ..

tOmOlO bAck 2wErk aGaiN.. siAaN lOrRh.. sUmtiMeS rEaLie siCk N tiREd oF mY wErk.. wErk 10aM tiL 10Pm eVeRi mOndAe tiL fRiDaE.. tHeN at tiMeS wE gOt oVeR tiMe.. Mi rEaLie vEriE tiRed.. cUz iM 1oaM tiL 1opM mY pArtNeR 1pM tiL 10pM.. yAa.. Mi oFcUz wiL gET mOoRe tiReD.. nOrMaLie oPeN aRoUnD 930aM tHeN stArt cLeAniNg e sHoP.. cOuNt e stOckS.. aRrAnGe e cLotHeS.. bLaH BlAh.. .. .. .. hAai.. sUmtiMeS fEEl likE cHaNgiNg e jOb.. bUt tHeR's CPF N mY pAy qUitE hiGh sO i rAtHeR stAy e sAmE jOb lOrRh.. N itS hArd 2fiNd a rEtAil jOb giVes sAt N sUn oFF fOr fUll tiMe yAa.. hMmM.. sO i tHiNk i'L sTaY iN e mEaN wHilE..

``~~ (^-^) ~~

jUz fiNiSh eAtiNg wiD mY mOm.. sHe sAe e pRaWnS vEriE niCe wOrRh.. =) hAhAaRh..

....如果

*如果可以重新來過﹐我想我不會就這麼讓你走。
*如果可以重新來過﹐我會實現每一個我對你的承諾。
*如果可以重新來過﹐我不會再計較什麼。
*如果可以重新來過﹐我會用心聽你說。
*如果可以重新來過﹐我只愿無時無刻都能和你手牽手。
*如果可以重新來過﹐我想或許我們都會愛得更好一點。

" 與我相戀一場的人﹐只為了還我一份情 "

有一個書生﹐ 他的未婚妻跟人跑了﹐ 一天﹐他走在路上碰到了一位和尚。 書生把這件事告訴了他﹐但和尚畢竟是化外之人﹐他沒說什麼﹐只是指著一個大水缸﹐要書生去看個究竟。 書生低頭一看﹐看見裡面躺著一個裸體的女人﹐看樣子已經斷氣許久了。他繼續往下看﹐看到第一個路人走過﹐ 只顧著趕路﹐沒有發現路邊的那具女屍。 不久﹐第二個人經過了﹐他看到了女人橫屍荒野很可憐﹐于心不忍﹐便動手將自己的外衣脫下﹐蓋在女人身上。 接著﹐迎面走來第三個人﹐他老遠就看見路邊的屍體﹐這個人捲起衣袖﹐動手挖了一個坑﹐讓女人的屍體入土為安﹐過後﹐雙手合十祭拜了一下死者。 書生看著那個好心人的背影慢慢消失﹐他抬頭問和尚 "這到底是什麼意思?" 和尚回答 "這就是你和你妻子之所以沒有辦法在一起的原因。" 書生不明白﹐和尚接著說 "那具女屍﹐是你未婚妻的前世﹐而你就是那個第二個經過替她蓋衣服的人。 她來到世上﹐與你相戀一場﹐只是為了要還你一份情。 還完了以後﹐她還有更大的恩情要報。" 書生聽了﹐不再為此傷心。

^^釣蝦~~ (^.')v

今天跟yiNgYuE dAviN 去釣蝦﹐ 好好玩喔!!

這是我的第一只蝦﹐超大的!! 哈哈~~ 開心耶~~ 嘻嘻 (^-^) 很 eNjOy lOrRh.. 我總共釣到10只.. yiNgYuE 釣到最多的。

第一次釣蝦的感覺不錯﹐環境也算還好﹐收穫也不錯。下次還會再去﹐希望會有所進步~~ *加油*~~~~

_``h O m E d

rEaChEd hOmE.. tOdAe aFtEr wErk mEet yiNgyUe dAviN lERliNg lEyiN fOr mOviE.. yAa.. wAS qUitE a fUnNie mOviE.. jUz aS i fiNiSh mY sHoWeR sHaM mEsSaGe Mi.. hE sAe hiS cAr bRokE dOwN nEaR mY hOuSe aReA.. hE aSkEd wHetHeR i wAn 2cOmPaNie hiM tiL nExt mOrNiNg tiL e wErkShOp pPl cUm.. but i rEjEctEd.. toLd hiM tAt i gOiNg sLeEp sOoN.. yAa.. N i sAe wil mEet hiM sUm otHeR dAeS.. hAai.. i dO miSsEd hiM aLot.. bUt itS e tiMe 2lEt gO.. N i nOe i gOtTa lEt gO.. oR i'L sUffEr.. =( mAybE i'L mEet hiM aFtEr hiS hAri rAyA bAaRh.. oR mAyBe nOt.. i dUnO.. eVeRitiMe wHeN i sToP n hAvE sUm mOmEnt nEvER tHink bOut hiM N hE'L cOntAct Mi.. haAi.. hE tHiNks mAtUrE.. bUt hE dOeSnt tAkE Mi sEriOuSliE iN e pAst.. sO i gOtTa lEt gO iN oRdEr nOt 2gEt hUrt.. vEriE cOmPliCatEd.. i dUn wiSh 2tHiNk bOuT it.. *STRESS*

^^^^SO TiRED !!!!

aHh.. tOdAe OT tiL 10pLuS 11Pm tHeN oFF wErk siAaL.. sTil lEft aLot stOckS 4tOmOlO.. hAai.. tOmOlO sTiL gOtTa wErk tiL 1030pM lOrRh.. kAnAsAi.. Si bEi sHaG siAaL.. 'yAo Si liAo lOrRh'.. !!!! ('.'!)

// bAck hOmE~~

tOdAe mOtHeR'S biRtHdAe.. yAa.. jUz fEtCh hEr fRoM wErk N wAs bAck at hOmE.. hUnGriE.. bUt dUn tHiNk iM gOiNg 2mAkAn.. *lAzY*~~~~ hAhAaRh.. tiRed lOrRh.. tOdAe gOt 118nEw stOckS.. oH.. bUt e sAlEs okAy okAy oNliE.. =(

hMmM.. k lAaRh.. vEriE tiReD.. wiLL gO rEst sOoN..

(-.-)zzZ.. .. .. ..

aNti_sOciAl.. ('.'?)

hMmM.. nOwAdAeS Mi vEriE wEiRd.. sElDoM cOntAct mY fReNs uNlEsS tHeY cOntAct Mi 1St.. N sUmtiMeS i dUn eVeN bOtHeR 2rEpLy mEsSaGeS Or aNsWeR fOnE cAllS.. HmMm.. rAtHeR aLoNe..

~````hOmE sWeEt HoMe..

yEaAh~~~~
fiNaLiE rEaChEd hOmE lErRh.. !!!! vEriE tiReD.. hAa.. Mi eVeRiDaE oSo tiReD dErRh lArRh.. (^O^) hAaRh~~ tOdAe wHoLe dAe oNliE eAt fiSh pOrRiDgE siAaL.. nOw sO hUnGriE.. mAyBiE lAtEr gO cOok sUmtHiNg 2eAt bArRh.. hEe..

mY dAe tOdAe_-``

tOdAe RitA cAmE 2rEpLaCe QiUxiA at 6pM.. tAts e piCtUrE wE tOok wHiLe wErkiNg.. hAhAaRh~~ tOdAe wAs a bUsY dAe.. tHeN mEet aDeLiNe fOr a dRiNk aFtEr wErk.. yAa.. eNjOy aLot.. wE rEaLiSe tAt tiMe rEaLIe pAsS vEriE fAst.. n So gOt 2tReAsUrE eVeRi mOmeNt tOgEtHeR wiD fReNs oR fAmiLiE.. hMmM.. wAs tiReD.. sO wiLL rEst eArliE lAtEr.. N i wAsNt fEeLiNg sO wEll.. bUt tOdAe wAs a gUd N fiNe dAe fOr Mi.. (^-^)

_``NitEsSs..

jUz fiNiSh cHatTiNg oN e fOnE wiD dOnG gUa.. vEriE lOnG nEvEr cHaT wiD hiM oN e fOnE liAo.. yAa.. sMokiNg riTe nOw.. wiLl gO sLeEp sOoN.. sTiLL gOtTa wAkE up aT 730aM fOr wErk.. aLriTe.. (-.-)zzZ..

^eMo NitE..

miDdLe oF e NitE alwAeA gEt vEriE eMotiOnAl.. tHiNk oF e pAst.. tHiNk oF stUpiD tHiNgS.. aRrGGh.. .. .. .. dUn likE e bLoOdiE fEeLiNg !!!!

``e gUy i'LL nEvEr 4gEt iN mY wHoLe liFe..

[ oNg biNg sHu ]
e piCtUrE hE tOok wiD hiS gUrRl.. wE nOe eAcH otHeR tHrU mY siS eVoN.. mY siS iN pRiSoN nOw.. tHeN he lOst cOntAct wiD Mi vEriE lOnG lErRh.. 2YeArS lErRh bArRh.. hE likE Mi lAst tiMe.. bUt wE nEvEr bE tOgEtHeR.. eVeRi liTtLe tHiNg wE hAd i sTiLL rEmEmBeR.. wE pLaY (e) aT mY hOtEl wiD mY siS lAst tiMe.. hE hUgGeD Mi N sAe hE lOvE Mi.. kiSsEd mY fOrEhEaD.. hAai.. wE lOvEd eAcHoThEr tAt tiMe.. bUt e fAtE diDnt lEt uS bE tOgEtHeR.. mi tOok vEriE lOnG bUt sTiLL cAnt 4gEt hiM.. i sUiCidE fOr hiM fEw tiMeS.. hAai.. fiNd mYsElF sO siLLy.. N hE oSo dUnO.. hE wEnt miSsiNg siNcE 10 oCtObEr 2006.. i fOuNd hiM lAst yEaR.. bUt oSo lOst cOntAct liAo.. hE's aTtAcHeD N wE cAnt bE tOgEtHeR.. rEmEmbEr hE uSeD 2siNg Mi e sOnGs.. hE's rEaLiE vEriE sWeEt 2Mi.. bUt aLL e mEmOriEs oNliE cAn lEaVe iT iN mY hEaRt.. tiL nOw i stiLL miSs hiM aLoT.. bUt i nOe wE'rE iMpOsSiblE dErRh.. hAai.. i nOe i cAnt fiNd aNi oThEr gUy tAt i'LL lOvE aS mUcH aS i lOvEd hiM.. bUt i hOpE tAt i cOuLd mEt a gUy wHo wiLL tReAsUrE Mi n hElP Mi 4gEt tiSh bAstArD..

\\ 3yEaRs pRoMisE..

dOnG LiNg tOk bOut oUr 3YeArS pRoMiSe.. [jUlY 13tH 2010] hAaHaRh.. lAst yEaR.. jUly13.. hE pRoMiSe Mi tAt iF 3yEaRs lAtEr iF iM stiLL siNgLe hE'LL wAn Mi.. hAa~~ fUnNiE.. bUt wE sHaLL sEe.. bUt Mi tReAt hiM aS a vEriE gUd bUdDiE.. sO i dUnO wAd wiLL hApPeN in e fUtUrE.. hAhAaRh..

_^^mOodiE..

nOw oN e fOnE wiD mY bEst bUdDiE-dOnG gUa.. hE tOld Mi bOuT My eX tHiNg.. yAa.. wEll.. Mi N hAn sHeN oVeR lErRh.. hE's nOt mY kiNd oF gUy.. hE dUnO hOw 2tReAsUrE mi iN e pAst.. N i dUn hAvE aNi fEeliNgS fOr hiM.. hmMm.. wE qUitE sUmtiMe nEvEr cOntAct lErRh.. aCtuAliE lAst mOntH 19tH hiS biRtHdAe Mi wAntEd 2mEsSaGe hiM 2wiSh hiM hApPiE biRtHdAe dErRh.. bUt eNdEd uP nEvEr.. aNiwAe dOnG gUa sAe hE jUz eNd hiS rElAtiOnShiP wiD hiS gUrRl.. hMmM.. mi sTiLL tReAt hiM aS fReN.. sO mAybiE fiNd sUmtiMe 2mEeT oUt lOrRh.. yAa.. hAai..

`` bOrEd'eD..

sO bOrEd aT hOmE tOdAe.. oFF dAe sO fAst fiNiSh aGaiN.. tOmOlO mOnDaE.. bAck 2wErk.. yAa.. wiLL be a tiReD dAe bAaRh.. hAai..

>> oUtiNg~~^.^

yEstErDaE wEnt oUt wiD mY bEst fReN yiNgyUe N hEr gUy dAviN.. wE wEnt 2wAtCh a mOviE yAa.. [ mY bEst fReN'S gUrRl ] wAs qUitE a NicE n fUnNie mOviE.. hAhAaRh.. nExT fRidAe dAviN'S biRtHdAe wOrRh.. tHeY sAe gOiNg 2wAtCh F1.. hMmM.. mi wErkiNg.. mAybiE mEet tHeM fOr sUpPeR bAaRh.. dUnO lEh.. ('.'?)

..-_hiM..

wAs sO iN ⓛⓞⓥⓔ wiD tiSh bLoOdiE gUy.. 天真的以为 hE's e RitE gUy fOr Mi.. 不爱我了，真的不难受。不在乎我，也是事实了.. wE diD hAvE sWeEt mOmOriEs.. eNuF lErRh.. bUt.. 嫌伤的我不够深mA?? eVeRitHiNg bOuT uS iSsH oVeR.. all oVeR.. y U sTiLL bOtHeR 2mEsSaGe Mi?? U'R e oNe giViNg uP 'Us'.. 在我需要你的时候`我却找不到你.. wAd e hEll.. wHo aM i 2U?! tOt i wAs uRr gUrRl tAt tiMe.. ? i cHoOsE 2eNd.. dOeSnt mEaN i giVe uP e lOvE fOr U.. jUz tAt.. 一段感情"如果只有单方面付出，是不会有好结果的.. 你没有错_可能你尽了力\\只是你给我的，并不是我要的.. sO mAyBiE.. 分手是我们最好的选择bAaRh..